♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Well, i guess today i totally managed to see that person's real side....
Once that person said as if he/she can be there for you.. no matter wad...

BULLSHIT!
all i can say is that..

now i know.. all this cannot be trusted...
after such a short period of time.. you actually could juz get someone else and said the same old words..

Now i finally know that.. people can never be trusted..
No matter who that person is.. and how you used to trust..

Trust is based on time..
TIME can show everything..
In this case.. time show that you are nth but an asshole....
Oh.. and i have to say.. this suits you a lot a lot..

Once i even thought of forgetting it.. and lets be friends all over again..
But now.. this is totally out of my mind after i have seen sth like that..

I must have eaten wrong medicing to believe wadeva shit you told me..
Ridiculous right?
Well.. lets see how many more people can you use this trick on..
Good luck to you..

All i can say is.. take care..
cuz wadeva things you have done.. will come back to you one day..

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

1:10 AM

♥ Friday, December 18, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I juz dun get the reason why.. recently my life sucks...

SERIOUSLY.. SUCKS...

i mean... i get emotionally affected easily..
And i get very emotional..

Well.. and i get pissed off damn easily...

But i am fucking pissed off when people juz want it their way when they know its is not possible.. and they think they deserve it..

HEY! WAKE UP!
THe world is NEVER revolving around you..
Wadeva you wan you get it..

And why care so much who is when?
Does that matter to you alot?

Why do you have to make a big fuss out of it?
You think you are the only person down there who has other issue to be done?
You think others dun have?

Ya.. you are the best... biggest.. congras...

Who the f do you think you are who deserve all these?
You think i dun have all this shit?
I also have right?
So now... you wan everything to be in your way.
and the way you talk is like f-ing bastard..

YA.. the world is so yours..
One day.. i should juz let wadeva i am having now.. and give it to you..

Like that you can get even more things le..
HAPPY?!

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:42 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 16, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Lately.. A lot of problem popped out like that..
Its not even my business... yet i am putting it on me.. and making me stress like shit..

Is like.. totally not worth it..
Tried to explain it..
Tried to say the reasons..
But seems like no one tend to understand how i was thinking..
And instead.. they think i am thinking too much.. or being selfish..

But i am not..
Because.. i dun wan the same old hurtful route to happen again to anyone around me..
But it seems like I am bothering too much and i am juz being an idiot down there thinking so many things..

I guess maybe letting them fall will be the best way to do..
Only when you are hurt or totally hurt by it.. you will learn the lesson...

I guess this is the only way..

I guess people juz dun appreciate wad i have done.
They juz think i am someone who is being stupid and idiot..

I really hope i could juz evaporate from this world.. and vanish.. so that i wun see so much problem and trouble..
And i wun even have to give in or put in any effort...

I wun even give a damn to wad is happening around me..
Advice i hear from other further prove to me that wadeva i say is right...
But will you ever listen?

Now, i dun know wad to say..
I dun know wad to do..
I think a bunch of people are just down there laughing at me for being stupid...

There must be a bunch of people being happy for wad i am in right now..

Juz feel like stabbing myself.. juz at the centre of my chest.. and let the blood flow off like that.. no point living in this world.. when no one understand wad i am thinking and my intention..
Work so hard for wad?
No point..
juz end off..

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:55 PM

♥ Monday, December 14, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Juz got back from the Kulai Competition....

It is indeed a great good experience for me...

This is my first competition.. and i managed to get into finals for both Cha and Rumba..

Of course.. Lots of thanks to Kenny, who is partnering for this competition..

Although wasnt a permanent partnership..

But at least we won something... And manged to make SIngapore proud? Or even SPDS proud..

Cuz in the final.. we are the ONLY Singapore team for the 2 cat...

SIAO.. DAMN NERVOUS CAN?!

First time in my life..

But managed to get 2nd for Rumba and 7th for Cha...

Stood on the 2nd stage...

First time in my life!!!

Thanks to Jennifer who helps out with my make up and my hair..

I LOVE MY WIG!!!!

I LOVE MY MAKE UP! HAHAHA...

So good right?!

HAHA...

Partner and me:)

Won the second for rumba.. HAHA..

INTO THE FINALS FOR BOTH CAT.. HAHA..

so happy..

NP comp is coming up.. hope to win another medal.. haha..

First time feel so successful in my life..

Of cours ei hope that.. my friends wun think i am showing off or sth?

LOL>. shall update more later.. HAHA.. with more details and stuff:) MUHAHA..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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6:21 PM

♥ Thursday, December 10, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Yeah.. I m being too nosey...
But look.. Who is the one who came up with all the saying: " Please make sure that V will stop smsing my brother.. I am sure she will."

Is because of this line, i want to send this kind of stupid mail..
Why must let you look down on V?
Who are you?

You arent even with her 24 hrs..
How would you know wad kind of person she is?
Yeah right.. Your brother is always the right one.. I doubt luh..

During the talk, i keep pushing the blame, althought you keep saying you are not..
but come on la.. You know how much?
I am sure if you know.. You wun even sit down there and talk...

Yes.. you cannot control him..
But see.. who is the one who say that he wun.. and you will make sure he wun de..
Cuz you said you will MAKE SURE..
and since you said it.. i willt ake you for account..

I also wun wan to keep sending this kind of emails..
You think i so free, dun nid to study for my mst ar?

So nice its is end.. then juz let it be..
See how lor..
I doubt that you will end it well.. hope you will be happy with wad you are doing now...

P.S thanks for knowin i am trying help.. But being there is no use when he sms.. OK?
Get the fact right...

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

1:40 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 9, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I juz realised, recently a lot of things happened..
I cannot be myself..
I wanted to be my true self.. But i juz cannot..

I had to bear responsibility to almost everything..
Family, friends, Work, Studies...

I want to cry, stone, emo and even be angry..
But i cannot.. Cuz i know.. some people juz need me more than i need them..
I keep telling myself.. I need to be strong enough so that people can depend on me..
but now, i am really tired.. I want to depend on ours as well!
But i dun know how to...

I guess i am too used to let others depend on me..
Yes.. i may be a little stubborn at times..
but deep inside, once i care for that person, i will care with all my heart..

But sometimes, when you are alr hurt, you stil have to act like nth happen. its tough..
Its as if testing my own patience and endurance..

I want to cry.. But parents wun even bother..
Everytime the tears want to come out.. i juz had to suck it back...
Everytime i want to vent my anger out.. It juz cannot come out.. cuz i know.. if i do.. the whole situation will go crazy...
Everytime i want to throw tantrum... I juz held on.. cuz i scare people will get pissed off with me..

I guess everything to me.. is how others think about me..
I dun know why am i so conscious about what i am doing..
I dun know wad has really gotten into me..

I really hope one day. i could juz sit down and cry the hell out of me.. because i want to be a normal person who has the feelings. and not acting out everything...
BUt for now.. myself is not so important alr..
wait till its time.......

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:27 PM

♥ Thursday, December 3, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I dun know why.. I recently is very into Leo Ku..(古巨基）

Watched the Pearl Princess for dun know how many times..

Watched Romance in the rain for dun know how many times also.. but still wan to watch...

I think is mostly cuz of him..

I juz find his kissing scenes damn nice..

He looks like he is enjoying it.. LOLL..

How i hope my bf can kiss like him!! HAHAH..

Ok luh.. he is cute as well.. Lets talk about ROMANCE IN THE RAIN

He looks damn cute luh.. haha..

Above are the main leads..
From the left: Alec Su, Ruby Lin, Vicky Zhao, Leo Ku...

SEE?! I told you.. he is cute.. haha.. pretty face.. hahaha..
and a good kisser!! OPPS... haha
He and VIcky is like a good pair.. haha.. LOVE IT:) HAHA..

AND NEXT!!!

Pearl Princess III
Ok luh.. i dun really love the girl.. haha.. but she look cute though...

Ok.. i think leo dun suit the Qing Dynasty hairstyle.. HAH..
i seriously think he suits the modern Shanghai style.. HAHAHA..
cute look too:)

BUT I LOVE SEEING HIM KISS!
If he kiss me oneday.. i will fly up in the sky man.. LOLL.. hahaha...

hope to see more of his show.. hahaha..
love him much:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

1:14 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 1, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

After so long later, i plucked up this courage to write this down.

"She..... She thinks too much, she asked for the end, and now, she ask for a patch back."

This line truely and serously hurt me...

Not to mention anything..

How can you say something like this?

I think you dont really know me well.. You dun even know wad kind of person I really am....

Fine..

I guess.. this is the end of us.. the end of the friendship as well..

I only want you to understand that, you are not the only one who is hurt..

I only want you to know.. in this world there are tons and tons of problems.. that are waiting for we humans to solve..

If you always use 'lets get over it' to end a topic.. no one can stand you or want to solve problem with you.

You may think.. I dont like you as much as i say...

But if i dun do it like this, will you even notice the serousness in it?

Until when i say that or even do it, you start to know that hey! this is serious! I have to solve it now! But before that, have you ever thought of it?

I can say.. no.. you haven.. and you dun even know that where you are in the wrong until now..

Have always been waiting for the time when we can get back.. but does it even happen? I can say. NO..

Wadeva you said, juz went down the drain.and it never come arise..

I guess.. this is the end..

Farewell my friend...

Farewell to your relationships, no matter is friendhsip or anything...

Just let it end, and next itme when you see me and you ignored me, i will just take it as someone whom i dun know at all...

Farewell...

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Try to dump my feeling down.. juz felt a lot recently..

I know MST is coming pretty soon..

So i decided that i should clear my mind before MST and totaly chiong for it. HAHA..

Now, one is gone.. here come another...

hais. i think i should just leave it for later or tomorrow for further blogging..XD

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:29 AM

♥

My Complicate Life ♥

KAWAIII!!!
This is my dearest Chinen Yuuri!!
HAHAHA....

Yesterday is his birthday...
OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!!

He has turned from that picture, who is so cute and cheerful.. to someone who is cool and cute at the same time!

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KAKKOI+KAWAII!!!
HAHA..

He is 2 yrs younger than me... BUt i still love his a lot a lot..
HAHAHA..
He is so so cute.. HAHAH...
His idol OHNO SATOSHI.. is juz a few days birthday away from him.. HAHAHA..

lastly, wish him happy birthday.. and hope to see more of his productions!!
WITH YAMADA RYOSUKE!! YES!! HAHAHA...

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU, CHINEN-KUN

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:16 AM

♥ Sunday, November 29, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Recently is like so fun.. HAH..

Friday
was public holiday, no school..
So Beatrice and me met to go for a swim..
Went to the one near my house..
But it's too ex..
So decided to go for the Jurong East Sport Complex..

Went for the wave thingy...
It's like so fun..
A bunch of guys juz came banging at us... HAHHA...
It's like so fun.. HAHA...
Ok la.. i got one period is like so scared and stuff.. HAHAA..
But it's alright.. ITS SO SO SO SO FUN!

Beatrice ended up at my house... watching movies..
She is like so sexy on my bed..
LOLLL..

Saturday
Met with the seniors at lakeside to get our costumes done...
and bought some cosmetics..
Cuz i am so broke.. i have no choice but to not buy cosmetics..
Shall buy it next wk for sth.. HAHA..
Danced till 9 plus.. or rather.. 8 plus...
the remaining time.. was like merely playing..
ON THE CHAIR!!!!

HHA.. it's fun.. HAHA..
Had dinner then went home..
I reached home.... at ard.. 11 plus..
woots.. so late.. HAHAHA.....

Today is like so bored....
SO BORED! HAHA..
alright..
gtg watch movie before chiong-ing hwk.. AHHA..

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

5:51 PM

♥ Friday, November 27, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Ya.. i know i am like.. a day later..

But still.. I am going to wish my dearest OHNO SATOSHI...

A BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

He is not cute.. i have to say.. he is not good looking..

BUt the way he act is always the most important ones...

All his team members will play jokes around him.. cuz he is alittle slower than the rest of his members..

But he make a good good leader!!!!

His appearance in the variety makes me laugh like a thousand times...

RIIDAI! OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!

Of course.. he is....29 this yr..
AND.. HE IS STILL NOT ATTACHED!!!

Get a fated girl and get married!!
HAHAHA....
BUt i think.. He is the most in almost everything..
HIS VOCAL IS ALSO VERY GOOD!!!
HAHA...

And i love to hear him sing!

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!! RIIDA!!!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

10:35 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Recently, i am like screaming over GOKUSEN the movie...

AND ONE OF THE MAIN LEAD IS.. TAKAKI YUYA!! OMG...
OK.. people say he is girly.. I have to agree to a certain extend..
But that is only cuz people never see him acting like a gangster before..
Seeing him acting like one, makes me think of past memories.. LOLL
He is really man and cool out there. HAHA..
SO in loved with him...

TO ME.. he is cool luh.. hahaha..

SO COOL! he also got small eyes.. but it looks good on him:)

OK.. his gangster feel is officially out..

You should see him wear skinnies man!

Looks damn hot and cool on him..

Unlike most people/guys.. they wear skinnes like.. erm.. not to say ugly.. but it juz dun suit them...

*this line meant nth in shooting people.. thats only how i feel.. no offence:)

haha.. but i do love guys who look good in skinnies:)

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TOday is fun! HAHAHA..

But last night is like a torture..

SHALL NOT EAT LONG JOHN ANYMORE!!

Got this paranoid feeling in me.. HAHA.

I think i will avoid long john for a long time.. HAHA..

OK>. SHALL STUDY NOW!! OMG!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:21 PM

♥ Monday, November 23, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I just woke up..
I actually dozed off while watching drama, waiting for my friend to reply me on msn.. LOLL...

Yesterday is really tired.. I actually snooze off when i am teaching!
Gosh...
But the contract is ending anyway.. So i think i will juz terminate the contract.. Cuz working inside, is a bore..
Everyone there is like so proud and things...
You are like always alone..
So wads the point of doing things in there?

Hmmmm.. OK.......
So shall start think of wad to do during the holiay:)

Saturday, went CHinatown to buy costume..
Jennifer said mine looks like go clubbing..
So quite a lot of amendments were made..
And i think mine is the most ex among the rest of them...
Hope the end product is nice and looks nice on me too:)

THe SPDS costume buying day is like so fun!!!
Me and Samuel is like laughing over the boob joke..
And we also talked about the sharing room...

It's like really so fun to go out with SPDS people....
THey are a bunch of funny and humourous kids:)

Ohhhh... I WAN TO GET TO WATCH GOKUSEN THE MOVIE!
OMG..

i have heard from Momo.. that the movie is awesome..
And Takaki Yuya is like SO HOT!
So is Kamenashi Kazuya!
HAHAHA...
I hope i can go watch.. with BEatrice or some others.. HAHAHA..

I wan to watch the scary movie as well:)
HAHHA.. so interesting..

OK.. OK.. Shall go ahead for lunch.. Cuz i dun wan to be late for school..
And get scolded....

CIao~

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:08 AM

♥ Thursday, November 19, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

YES.. I CAN GO FOR KULAI COMPETITION!!!!
So happy..
So today.. Kenny and I actually practiced our cha cha..
And managed to get it done.. pretty well..
Shall brush up.. and perfect it...

HAHAHA... So happy....
Well.. recently everything went my way.. except that some small things happened luh.. haha.. but still alright...

I wan to say.. I am really happy to have a friend..
Although she is short-tempered..
Although she is very vulgar.. hahaha..

But she is a very sweet friend..
When i nid her, she is always there for me..
When i nid advice.. she always gives me..

And also.. she trust me.. and dun listen to wad others say..
she believe in what she hear and see about me..

She made me feel that i can be trusted.. ..
THANK YOU SO MUCH:) MUACKSSS....

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ok.. now.. i got to deal with some spams in my blog....
I have to say.. People spam me.. cuz they are not happy with me..
I know... sometimes.. people tend to dislike me for many reason..
1. I talk dun think through.. I am a straight forward person...
2. I would just say that i dun like you and point out all the mistake in front of that person's face.. without giving any face..

I know.. but i can only say..
When i m not happy.. its only cuz of the issue.. its never the person...
Everyone has flaws..
So.. this is all i can say..
If you wan to spam.. pls continue.. i wun ban you.. i wun delete any of your tags..

Of course.. i would like to thank people who stood up for me..

ZzzZz, AhDuGen,CCB
I may not know who you guys are.. but i really want to thank you guys for helping me out.. and standing out for me...

All i can say is.. I dun know who is the person..

But still.. i would like to thank you guys.. even though i dun know who are you.. but at least you stood out for me.. THANKS A MILLION:)

OH. and lastly.. I wan to tell the ttttttt person...
THanks for giving me the feedback on how i blog.
But i think i prefer how i blog..
cuz this is me.. and this is my style, not your style..
Of course.. you can hate it. i cant say and force you to say you like it..
So if you wun like it.. pls dun see..

And.. i think my life is happening.. means it is happening..
Cuz it seems like our interpretation are very diff..

But still wanna thank you for commenting on my style.. HAHA..
It makes me think of how to be even more better? LOLL
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Alright.. i seriously think i should start to study.. HAHA..
cuz i got a lot of things missing..
ARGH.. always sick..
GET WELL SOON!!! :P

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:16 PM

♥ Tuesday, November 17, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

YES.. MYOB..
It's my effing life.. so shut the f up.. dun comment on my life...
CUz its my life, not your life...

People tend to use.. passerby and unknown to spam the tagboard...
Wads so good about using those name?
So no guts doing that...

Especially when they are saying something that is bad.. if you have the balls to say.. use your real name.. dun hide hide hide... loser!!

To passerby: Erm.. Yes.. I think i am from pluto..thats why you cant get wad i am saying down here.. But pls myob.. cuz whether you understand or not.. i dun care.. so keep that comment to yourself.. If you have gd to say, thank you.. if not.. juz leave down YOUR NAME.. rather than putting down passerby.. wads to hide about?

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Ok.. ok...
dun so angry alr.. haha.. shall cool down:)

Anyway.. yesterday is like. terrible!
not welll.. and yet.. stil have to go buy tube..
Dun know why they cannot give earlier notice..
made me and beatrice walk almost the whole 'this fashion'

Oh.. have to say.. me and beatrice are like totally pissed off the shopkeeper down there..
Is like.. totally giving us attitude all the time...
But nvm. its alright...
shall not go there to buy le....

now is like.. SO SLEEPY!
last night.. has been like..'omg. dun sleep'
while the notice of meeting cancelled is being informed at.. 3am?
is like.. wtf? i wait for like... how long alr? for a full 1 hr!! omg..

really wth leh..
luckily Kai and Beatrice accompany me:)
THEY ARE THE BEST! HAHAHA>.

really want to go for the competition.. but wad peiwen said was right la..
Have a long term partnership, rather than a short term one..
So still thinking if i should go or not.. Maybe go watch:)

haha.. so excited! omg.. haha...
anyway... is like so bored right now can? omg...
having lesson.. and i am near to doze off.. hais...
alright... have to go:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

9:32 AM

♥ Sunday, November 15, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Hmm.. yesterday was so much fun!
Went shopping.. and things....
Went around Bugis.. and then bought bandage skirt..
I thought i will wear it ugly.. but it turns out that its not..
Ok only..
juz that my tigh is fat.. omg..
shall work out more:)

after that.. went to the void deck and chat...
SO FUNN..
practically is like.. laughing all the way..
I still remember..." the leg hold the ankle"
OMG.. laughing again...
HAAHA..

Oh.. this reminds me of...
"OH... Toastmaster!"
"Oh.. make toast de is it?"

=.=
O.O
O.=

OMG.. my life is like so happening... HAHAHA..

so fun.. everyday...

I HAVEN STUDY! OMG!
i am so not going to flunk my this sem..
CUZ ITS THE LAST SEM ALR.. OMG!

shall start to study alr! HAHAH..

so fun...

Oh.. ya.....

I juz want to say

If you are good to me.. i will be triple times good to you..
If you are bad to me.. i will also be triple times bad to you...

This is wad i have to say..
And also.. there is a lot of things.. i have to say..
Today happen, tomorrow a new day..

Dun really want to hold grudge over it for too long...
Although i am not very "pretty".. but i still dun wan to risk myself in having wrinkles early.. LOLL...

So wadeva unhappy had happened.. juz let it be..

CUZ... HAPPY-GO-LUCKY.. SAVES THE DAY:)

so yup...

wad for be so unhappy over something for such a long long long long time?

Like that no one would be happy...

SO.. DUN WORRY.. BE HAPPY! HAHAHA..

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

11:59 AM

♥ Saturday, November 14, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

WARNING: VULGAR... EVERYWHERE!!!!
Dun read it if you dun feel like...
CUZ IT MAY BE TALKING ABOUT YOU!!! LOLL

Recently, life juz sucks like shit... LOLL...

On thursday, tried to doll myself up since, my mum FINALLY left Singapore..
So put on some make up.. and a little fake eyelash..
When i stepped into the class.. Someone called me Ghost.. =.=

Come on lor.. its not as horrible can? I did look prettier.. I can tell!!!

Then today.. the day just suck like shit...
Fever, Flu, Cough..
Fights here and there..

I seriously dun get it...
People can just do anything for the sake of getting the things they want..
And for doing it.. They dun give a damn on how much they hurt someone..
I guess.. that is how Bastard that person is luh..

I mean.. i can just play along..
But the problem is.. everytime i got sth to say, or do.. someone has to go against me..
What have i done? I dun get it leh.. SERIOUSLY!

I dun give a damn if i am a badmouther or wad..
At least wadeva i say is the fact...

I didnt made up some stories... I juz copy and paste..
Wad is wrong in being someone honest.. and being someone frank?

Why must always be so insulting?
Does insulting people makes you feel damn great?
Makes you feel like you are the president is it?

I dun give a damn if i dun get any post in the anything..
As long as i get to dance.. I am fine with anything..
But if you try to do anything funny... in not making me dance.
YOU WATCH IT!

Wad is wrong with concentrating on dance?
If you really wanna battle, do it on the dance floor..
Dun do anything behind others back..

THat is like so evil and devil.. and so no balls..
Unless you admit that you are a loser and some no ball shit luh...

seriously.. i think that.. even my sister have more balls than you...
Even she also know that.. fall down alr, kick that enemy is like.. so loser..

Cant understand why a 7 yr old kid can know so much thing..
I think he should really juz go back to pri school and re-leanr everything...
Or maybe this one also no use? LOLL

Seriously.. i dun get it why people like to talk behind others back..
Cuz i swear i dun do it? ok luh.. i do.. but i am speaking the fact.. no like someone.. always make stories.. and say as if it is like f-ing real.

Go ahead! I shal see how mcuh you can say..
I am waiting for your creativity..
If you dun be writer.. i really pity a lot for you..
Seriously....

I think i should end this luh.. cuz i dun know how to end it.. LOLL

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

12:38 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

私は天才ですよ！
本当でしょね！

まま、私、今、全部の心て、ヤバイの思いです。

ああああ。。ヤバイ、私はばかですか？

ああああ。。本当？
本当に？

i juz found myself being DAMN DAMN DAMN STUPID LUH!! where got so stupid de people? LOLL...

Anyway... i m fine with anything now.. cuz i DUN GIVE A DAMN!!
LOLL...

ok.. lesson time:) HAHAH..

Lots of love,
SiSi

♥ My World My Life

9:02 AM

♥ Monday, November 9, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Hmmm.........seriously.. i dun know wad is wrong with people recently....
So angry..
BUT SHALL JUS LET IT BE!
Cuz dun wan to 'pollute' my blog..

Anyway.. is sick! SUPER SICK!
My throat is soring now..
Went gy with beatrice despite of being sick.
And ran for 30 mins?
HAHA.. had ton lots of fun luh.. HAHAHA...
Ate Subway in the end...

Then..... Chatted for a little while more.. and left home..
And HAD MY FAVOURTIE MEAT FOR DINNER!!!
HAHA...

tomorrow is goona be a long day.. ARGHH..
so tired.. now..

so i think i should go sleep..
BUT I HAVEN FINISH MY HWK!! OMG!

shall do it during lesson tomorrow:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:17 PM

♥ Saturday, November 7, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Hmm..i was thinking of changing this blog to a Japanese blog..
Cuz i am seriously lazy to write my jap updates in Amblo.. Wa lao.. everytime have to update in 2 web.. so MA FAN LOR! CAN?!

LOLL..
OK.. Today shall be Jap + Eng post.. HAHA..

JAPANESE!!!
今日どうですか？

まま、全ていいですよ！
私の好きの男、本当に可愛い。。。

ヤバイ、ずっと見得だ、やばいですよ。
今日はメル話せるよ！

嬉しいです！
本当にです。

マダマダ、どきどき。。。

ENGLISH
Ok.. there are tons lots of update for english..
haha..
ok.. today overall is good..
except in the day a bit nervous or rather scared?
CUZ I TRIED STH I NEVER TRIED BEFORE!!!
OMG..
and i am like.. so stupid.. i totally forget wad i was suppoed to do..
LOLL

anyway....
in the end... still turned out well..
so happy.. hope that tomorrow can continue luh.. HAHA..

OH YA!!!
Today had our first COMMITTE MEETING..
It's planned to be 1 hr long..but ended up to be.... 2 hrs..
but still alright luh.. i dun mind actually..HAHAHA..

who cares?! But we had fun..

WELCOME TO SPDS NEW COMMITTE!!!

So cuz of that.. i am not going for oversea ITP..
SO NOT~!!!
i cannot possibly juz dump everything down and go ITP right?
LOLL.. so i m not planning to go ITP alr..
HAHA..
Staying in SIngapore is also ok.. why no? LOLL

OK.. SHALL SLEEP!
SO TIRE~ OMG.. LOLL>. EXCTIED ALSO!! LOLL

Lots of love,
SiSi

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1:39 AM

♥ Friday, November 6, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Well.. wanted to write about him.. dun wan why.. BUT HE IS LIKE SO CUTE LUH!! OMG.. HAHA..

Nakajima Yuto.. ijuz find this pic of his.. so nice.. and cute..

HAHA..

Reminds me of.. LOLLL..

HAHAHA..

BUT SO CUTE LUH!

OK.. shall not post anymore.. LOLL..
cuz will have too much..
BUT HE IS SO CUTE! CHUUU KAWAIIII!!!

if wanna see mor eof his pic..
go GOGGLE.. then type in Nakajima Yuto...:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

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12:51 AM

♥

My Complicate Life ♥

Ya.. see title i think can tell alr bah..
Why i omg so much?
Cuz a lot of things happened today.. LOLLLL...

Alright. although Beatrice took the number.. but till now i haven sms.. LOLL..
is like a little weird? LOLL..

but when today in class.. its like.. so awkward. his friends actually called my name and things.. HAHA..
ok luh.. still alright luh..
acceptable.. LOLL...

but I DIDNT KNOW I AM SO FAMOUS? LOLL..
that class actually know my name! LOLL...

Must be my name easier to memorise.. HAHA...
MUST BE! HAHA..

Had dinner with the seniors.. and danceed...
Fun.. but my 10 bucks shoe spolit.. LOLL.. so sad!!
but nvm.. shall go see if there is anymore.. LOLL.. HAHAHA..

TOMORROW FORMATION! OMG.. SO FUn! HAHAHA..

alright.. go play games alr.. so stress ow lor..

LEEYEN! HOPE YOUR TIPS HELP! LOLL..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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12:38 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 3, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Wellllll...
I quarrelled with my mum like.. today.. and i am like f-ing pissed off with her..
She is like calling the whole time during Thermofluids.. and i seriously have nth to say about it luh...

And also..... Some people in the class was like.. WTH?!
You wanna be friends with me.. juz say dun wan.. dun like find tons of reasons and cover.. isnt it like so ma fan and tough?

So wadeva luh.. i dun give a damn even if i dun have a friend in the classs....
I DUN GIVE A BLOODY DAMN LUH!

Ok.. so i was like damn emo during the thermo class.. that i cry like shit..
so beatrice came to find me..
and i somehow like.. slack with her outside the class.. without going in the lecture hall..
we are like.. crapping all the thing we wan at the staircase...
FOR TWO WHOLE LESSON LUH!!
Woah.. seriously.. first time..

This is the good thing about mingling with CASS people..
you get to try things you dun dare to try..

So after that.. beatrice is like damn cute.. i was talking to her about my eye-candy.. and in the end..
she go ask number for me..
woah...
then she go " this one ar.. this one ar.." cuz she dun know which one is it..
woah.. i panick like shit...

then that class de guy start saying.. "eh.. you like .... ar..." then i am like.. NO! NO ! NO! LOLLLLLLLL.......

woah.. then beatrice damn cute.. get the number alr.. immediately go in front of me.. then go."na.." then he is lik ewalking beside me.. then i am like.. wth.. HAHAHA..
but overall is so funny... HAHAHA..

then after lunch.. not feeling well.. so mail class tutor and didnt go for ONOW.. LOLL...

So was like moberly with her... and did crap while i am like.. laughing like shit.. HAHAHA...

till like 5 plus.. then cliff came.. so funny lor..
WA.. was like laughing like shit....

siao.. HAHAHAHA...

so fun today.. today like that... i was like.. so so so so so so....... pissed.. then later.. is like.. so funny....
HAHAHAHA...

then go home.. everything is funny..
esp the asking of number.. wa lao.. so funny can? LOLLL.. HAHA..

till now stilll laughing..

But i wanna thank Beatrice luh.. for being there for me.. haha..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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10:51 PM

♥ Saturday, October 31, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Welll.. haven been updating for like.. 2 DAYSS...
Cuz lots of things happened after Wednesday...

So.. What happened??

WEDNESDAY
Had school from 8 to 11.. then went to clubhouse to slack.. decided not to go for GEMS cuz i am having a serious headache and sorethroat....

"Yuto-kun" was absent.. so didnt managed to do anything.. HAHA>.

Slacked and then went walking around.. and then go for dance..
Jive is killing me seriously......

Had our FIRST Committe Meeting..
And its like a pass-down thingy....
So i managed to get taught or rather being told of my duties and everything..
And had to say.. it's like quite a workload......
But i can say.. i will be able to manage it rather well.. if i really want it.....

SO.. I AM ALRIGHT!!!!!

THURSDAY
Had lesson from 8-5.. AND ITS TIRING!!

School start from 12... but my piano starts at bloody 8!!!!!

And i am seriously so tired.. that i dun have energy to listen during class..
and" Yuto-kun" peeped at me once? LOLLL. so random.....

Practiced jive.. and Melvin is seriously killing us!! LOLL..
danced for like.. couple of mins.. and my legs were damn sore.. GOSH..
My bloody.. 3 inches heels..
KILLING ME!!!!! LOLL....

But when i get home.. Daddy showed me the Latin DVD that he bought for me..... and i am like.. OMG OMG.. cuz that is like a treasure.. LOLLLLL.....

FRIDAY
Saw "Yuto-kun" on the bridge while walking with Ben..
THAT BEN SMACKED MY HEAD WITH HIS BOOK!
BEN! You are seriously getting from me! LOLL.. dun think i dun dare hor! Bully me.. LOLLL....

Walked all the way to t22.. for lesson...
and had breakfast at CASS..
the food there is really nice.. HAHAHA..
I LIKE IT!!!

Lesson ended like.. at 12nn.. then i dashed to clubhouse.. to snatch my "tian wei" LOLLL.. Wanted to sleep.. but ende dup watching Titanic.. and crying..

Stupid Yon.. danced the Ring Ding Dong.. when i am trying to cry out...
And Gary was like screaming, giving me a fright.. HAHAHAA....

But thats our spds people! HAHA.. always try to be funny.. and make laughters...
But i still managed to cry.. LOLLLL......

using.. 2 tissue papers.. for this whole movie..
Hmm.. normally i would use 2 box? HAHAA..
jkjk......

But its a nice movie.. shall do movie review soon..
Tomorrow? Now very tired ar....

Went for dance.. with gastric.. but held on..
And fell down on pelvis bone.. GOSH.. that hurts...
and i am like.. omg.. cold sweat coming out..

But someone is really nice enough to say..
"Ya.. its jus her another show.."

Well.. I guess.. since you dun know anything.. you should just keep it to yourself.. and not make much comments...

Cuz seriously... for me to leave the dance floor.. it means that something is really not right...

I juz dun wanna say it out.. and Martin feel guilty cuz its partially my fault....

So.. yea.....

I am not a faker for your info:)
If i say "PAIN!" it means it really hurts...

AND I MEAN IT!

Thank you to Kristal.. Venessa.. and my kind captain Peiwen for caring for me..
Oh.. Not to forget.. Kenogi and Joanne also.. HAHA..
Chiew Hui also!
God.. i got to write speech alr.. So many people to thank.. LOLL..

See? Thats spds big family.. people care for each other, one another.....
That is call team work...

Solo wun give you anything..

SO I JUST LOVE FORMATION!!! AND.. WE FINISHED OUR 'GENTLEMEN'!!!

Cant wait for our debut.. HAHA.. which is 1 mth ++ awayyy.. haha...
shall start to lose weight.. HAHA.....

so i can look good on my first performance!!! YEAHHAHH!!!!!!

alright.. got to go sleep.. so tired alr.. HAAH..

my dad's chilli crab is really nice!!
Arigatou.. Tousan...

And.. my dad asked me to dance gentlemen for him..
and one more thing.. MY SIS FINISH LEARNING MY CHA CHA ROUTINE!!!!
HAHA.. so happy....

Lots of love,
SiSi

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1:14 AM

♥ Friday, October 30, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Today just got like.. something so so so shocking....

People who tend to be close to you, will betray or hurt you the most..
I guess this is like the GOLDEN line..

So true!
I always thought that that person is like the someone's goodfriend..
But behind the back and bitch about others like siao..

What is that.. if you are so jealous of what we are having..
Then go do something about it.. but not bitch about it..

Or rather.. if you have anything not happy with me.. come and do it face to face to me.. dun do it un-table.. that is so unglam and so not gentlemen....

If you put it on a challenge, i would respect you as my opponent..
But if you dun have that bloody guts or rather, no balls... You can juz leave and dun leave any comments....

Bitching, everyone knows how to .. juz tat they wanna see how much they wanna use it..
Please dun force me to use it fully on you..
Cuz i dun see the point of doing it..
cuz we have like bloody remaining 2 yrs being together..
seriously no point.. LOLL..

I hope you seriously get a life luh....

P.S shall post about other things tomorrow.. cuz dun wanna mess with the bad mood..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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12:44 AM

♥ Wednesday, October 28, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I am sure you guys can see wad i am going to write through my blog?
This is juz how i feel luh.. cuz i am seriously bottling up tons lots of things...

People has been faker and faker.. seriously..
I mean if you have anything not happy or jealous of me.. or with me..
Just come straight into my face and say or talk about it.. or you can juz get your own life!

Dun come and mess with my friendships with others..
WHat is this?
You think you have that mouth, i dun have it?

Seriously... Dun get too overbroad..
If not you watch your back...

Dun say i never warn you or wadeva shit..
I am doing it now!! IN MY BLOG!!

If you ever dare to mess with my life, i am going to make sure that you regret coming into this world...

Is like seriously wads the problem with you?
So wad you got everything?
You got money, so wad?

But your character and attitude sucks...

Dun even give me that kind of " I own the whole world" look..
You think everyone like you?
Dream on!!
People juz start to think another side of you!!!

So before you do any f-ing actions, think of your CONSEQUENCES!!
Dun in the end come to my face and cry or say sorry..
Dun even think i will let you off that easily..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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10:55 PM

♥ Tuesday, October 27, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

TOday's lesson is like so boring..
Thermofluids is still alright.. having some activity..
But the Engineering Material is like having a serious attitude..

How can he actually just close the laptop.. when others haven even come up?
If they are on their sit.. and they are using com, closing it.. is still alright..

but now.. is like.. they are not even on the seat!!
Gosh.. nvm...

None of my business anyway...

But anyway....
ITS SERIOUSLY BORING!~!!!!

I seroiusly cant stand it..

LOLL.. HAHAHA...

So during maths lesson, i am going to blog all i want..

I am seeing Nakajima Yuto-san now...
Ok.. eyes met a few times.. and electrical shock for like a few mins..
But thats how i feel luh.. HAHAHA...

SO FUNNY!!!
GOSH.. HAHAHAHA..

ok ok.. shall respect teacher!!
Cuz i am a good good student:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:15 AM

♥ Sunday, October 25, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Fell in love with this song...

Okaeri by Aya

It means WELCOME HOME

It is one of the song in Zettai Kareshi (絶対彼氏)
It means Absolute Boyfriend...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlgQi50HgaM&feature=related

This MTV is really really sweet.. Love Aya's voice...

It's subbed.. take a look at the lyrics.. It's really good!

Aya actually sang this because she missed everything in Osaka..

She hopes that one day, she could return, hearing her friends and family saying:" Okaeri" Welcome Home....

This story is really heart-warming..

Showing how a robot understand the meaning of true love..

It is actually being programmed to love Riiko..

But ended up.... He is truly in love with her..

Riiko always thought that Nighto is just being programmed to love her..

But when she found out that Nighto really loves her, she is also being touched by it..

But love is never complete....

Nighto had to be terminated due to the burnt Chip...

But Night is grateful that he get known to Riiko....

I cried a lot..

Even a robot know what is the meaning of love..

how could a human dun know?

OF COURSE.. watching this drama is cuz of this CHUU KAWAII guy.. HAHA..

mokomichi hayami Pictures, Images and Photos

Hayami Mokomichi...

速水もこみち

He is like super duber cute when he is in Zettai Kareshi..

Of course.. he did act in Gokusen 2? I think..

HAHA.. CHUU KAWAII and KAKKOI ONE!!!

Omg.. fainting again..

I dun know why.. i juz cant stand jap guys.. LOLL...

Lots of love,
SiSi

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7:22 PM

♥ Saturday, October 24, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I seriously think that being in school is like.. HEAVEN to me.. LOLLL...
Cuz i could do lots of things i would love to do..
Like crap with friends, dance, and even do things that i wun do..
HAHA...

So now....... I am almost looking forward to everyday's lesson..
Although the lessons would be bored or something.. there are always something that i will be looking forward to....

Of course, in thelife, there will be a lot of things that i would regret..
No matter if it is FRIENDSHIP or RELATIONSHIP.
But to me.. All of these are a process of life..
With all these, you will learn and grow up..
If you keep running away from it..
You will not grow AT ALL....
I think.. we should really look forth..
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OH YA!! I watched Hana Yori Dango Final on my Mio TV today.. HAHA.. the movie..

This movie is like totally AWESOME!!!

Matsumoto Jun is like SSOOOO CUTEE!!!

So is the female lead... She is so cute also.. especially when she is thinking through if Doumouji is really someone she should spend the rest of her life with....

Of course, through is... Learnt tons...

In a relationship, no matter what happens, it needs two parties to be able to go through it..

As long as the couple stay together, anything, or rather, everything can be solved...

I love a phrase in there...

"As long as you share the problem with the other half, the burden on the problem is halved..."

Precisely..

Thats why.. friends is also needed in the picture.. sometimes, people will think that, adding burden to others is a bad thing..

But sometimes, think the other way.. they will feel that if you are willing to open your heart to your friend, she will think that you trust her tons.. and not just a surface type of friend......

ALRIGHT!!!! Shall not crap here.. LOLL..

Is really looking forward to MONDAY.. and the new week...

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:26 PM

♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

I MANAGED TO GET VICE CAPTAIN IN DS!!!!

OMG... so happy!!!
I thought i would nvr make it.. but ended up.. i managed to make it..

So.. GARY is now our DS president..
He seriously worth it luh!!!

And Peiwen is my head.. CAPTAIN! Pretty surprised.. thought Ahsley would continue to be Captain.. But ended up she turned to be the treasurer:) That is good!!!

Yihan is the head of secretary..... and Charles is the vice...
And Leonard became the QM.. hahaha... was joking with him that.. the Clubhouse would be in a mess.. LOLL... But i believe with Ass QM, Joanne...
THe clubhouse would be in order:)

AND DON AND VENESSA ARE THE HRS!
So i shall be starting to expect to recieve emails from them about the SPDS updates pretty soon:)

AND BARRY AND LEPING IS IN THE EVENTS!!!

I am seriously looking forward to more and more and more events coming up!!!
Especially next yr's camp!!
HAHA.. THE NIGHT WALK!!!!!

After all.. is still happy about able to get the post thingy.. HAHA.. SHALL CONTINUE TO WORK HARD NO MATTER WAD!!!

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Alright.. here supposed to give a "friend" whom used to be really close to him.. but now.. is like not close anymore..:

I know to you maybe I back-stabbed you.
But you didnt give me a chance to explain my reason. You trust to listen things not from my mouth.

Though i promised not to say it out.. but i ended up doing it.
Have you thought of the reason why i did it?
Do you have an idea of why?

But i guess.. Time can prove that i am not someone whom will back-stab people.
Cuz i think for others.. if i dun think.. i would not back off at all...
It's not that i am a loser or sth.. i juz think that its not nice..
To you.. you think is nth.... but i think friendship is more important then just being happy on the physical.

If anything happens to me.. i would choose to listen to both party and not one side only.... because i trust that person will not back-stab me.. unless both party have clarify... But since you dun wan the friendship.. i gues.. there is nth i can do.. That is your choice.. i choose not to explain it to you.. cuz if you dun wan to do it.. or fix it, i find it no point doing anything about it...

But thanks for letting me the other side of my life... Though i envy like hell.. but i dun wan to touch it.. even if i am eligible for it..

To my another friend, whom i hope that i could talk to her.... but she didnt?

Thank you so much for being there for me when i once needed you.. but now, i guess, yo uthink i am not a good person?

I dont know what have you said.. but i still trust that you didnt betray me..
You once say that:" dun worry, it will be btw me and you."

But now, it seems like it is not like this?
But it is fine..
i really want to ask you about it.. but yo useems like.. you prefer him more than me..
Although you told me.. OMG.. i am so against him.. But ended up.. you still find him better than me..
I guess i shall just take it that he is a better friend than me..

I know i may suck in some way.. but i believe what i do, is good for you.
I am thinking for a friend, and not telling you cuz i can gain something..
I gain nothing but guilt actually.

I always believe that, i think for you.. but i never feel that you thought for me..
To you.. I may be someone who is immature.. think of things that are so stupid.. But that is me..
I tried to accept for who you are..
But ended up.. you rejected me for who i am?
I dun know luh.. but thats how i feel..

So yeah..
But i still we could talk it out.. cuz i trust you.. truthfully trust you.. cuz you are my friend...

ALRIGHTS.. DONE!!! HAHA... SHall end here!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

P.S I LOVE SPDS!!

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10:29 PM

♥ Wednesday, October 21, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

FINALLY! Momoko is being found.. she is in Yokohama..
That TAME.. made me so worried for her..

Slept at around 2 plus to deal with her issue.. andfinally everything is done.. HAHA..
I shall be dealing with my own stuff now? LOLL..
well, school is fine?
Today's class start at 8.. and ends at 11.. and now i am in the library, slacking, waiting for gems to start.. LOLL..

OH YA! I SERIOUSLY NID TO BITCH ABOUT SOMETHING!!!!

One of the guys who is in the same lecture as me..
LOOKS JUST LIKE NAKAJIMA YUTO!
GOSH...

ok luh.. maybe some angle of his looks like Yuto la.. but after all not so much?
Yuto is much more fairer than him.. he is a little tan..

And also.. that class is like.. gosh.. so noisy! LOLL..
NO OFFENCE FOLKS ( if you happen to pop by suddenly?! loll)

but i enjoyed the class though.. not like DMA.. everyone was lie so quiet.. then so stress.. LOLL..

NOW...
I am so hoping the WHOLE HEY!SAY!JUMP or rather, the whole JOHNNY'S ENTERTAINMENT can be her classmate.. LOLLL..

ok.. shall keep dreaming:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

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12:27 PM

♥ Monday, October 19, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Yup.. first day of school..
IS SUPER SLACKY!! HAHA..

but i have been rather blur recently.. dun know why..
maybe cuz i am too busy and emo?

recently momoko is also very emo..
But she doesnt want to tell me why...
Really hope that she could just say it out and so that she can feel better and i can help her out..
But its really tough when she doesnt want to say..
she is just like me. when she set her mind, she wun want to say..
But if she set her mind to say, she trust that person very much..

ANYONE!! SAVE ME!!! LOLL

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:21 PM

♥ Friday, October 16, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

just finished watching this drama....

by Nakayama Yuma.. Can i say this guy is damn cute?

After watching this show.. OMG.. I really cry till my whole clothes wet.. LOLL..

So the story is about Yuma being a vampire..
And his mission is to come to earth, find his lady and suck her blood, to get the eternity life..

But he found something while doing this.. His teacher, is actually his lover 10 years ago.. He choose to give up on his eternity then to suck her blood..

爱一个人，是要他快乐，而不是要把他永远留在身边。
就算现在分开了，可是回忆是永远的。

就算哪一天，其中的一个人，离开了，另一个也要好好的活下去。

永远的活着，不算是真正的活着。
去快乐，去悲伤，就算是受伤了，也要活出你的精彩。

就算是禁忌的爱情，也有甜蜜的地方。
可是，只要人活得精彩，就不会在乎这些了。

this is really how i feel after watching this..
Totally understand what is the real meaning of love..
It is not about making that person yours only..
But also to let the other person be happy even when you are not with that person..

Even though not being together is a pain.. But as long as you can see that person's smile forever, and you know that not being together is the best for her, then just let her be..

友情也是在信任上建立的。
没有了信任，什么事情都谈不了。

Well.. this drama really teach me tons of things la.. CAN?! LOLL

NAkayama Yuma Pictures, Images and Photos

NAKAYAMA YUMA!
This guy is super super cute!! KAWAIII!!!
He is with the B.I SHADOWS.. WITH KENTO! God.. did i mention that Kento is also cute? LOLL..

Yuma is only 15 yrs old.. 2 yrs younger than me..
HAHA.. but nvm luh.. I am willing to date him even if he is younger than me.. LOLLL.. HAHA..

So yea~~~~

God.. SO COOL!!
KAKKOI.. KAKKOI!!! OMG..*faint*..
HAHA.. ok la.. my fangirl side is here again.. HAHA..

NO CHOICE LUH!! CANNOT STOP LUH!! HAHA..

Nakajima Kento Pictures, Images and Photos

This is Nakajima Kento..
可愛いとカコイです！！！
大好き大大大好き！

Haha.. ok... i m being idiot alr.. LOLL>. HAHA..

SHOULD STOP NOW!!! got to practice piano.. LOLL>.<

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:23 AM

♥ Sunday, October 11, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Hearing what Momoko told me..
I was totally hurt..

I guess my guess and predication is always accurate...
I guess i can help out in the temple or something..

Anyway.. i guess what i did, made me feel at least a little more relieve.
If Momoko didnt say that to me.. i think i will forever live in guilt and feel full of sorry..

But i would rather be living in guilt, than to ended up knowing the truth..
Truth is always the most painful ones..

The shining outer mask is always being envied.. but the inner is forever not being seen...
I guess showing the outer mask is always seen because they want to hide themselves from being hurt..

But even when i am having my outer mask out.. i still get hurt..
So maybe taking off the both mask would be something good?

Right now, you can just say that i am a walking corspe..
doing what i was asked to..
even when it come to that.. it ended up like that..

Maybe my life is filled with failure in some ways?

Just hope i can GET OVER IT...
before tomorrow starts.. if not, i may get suspecious again..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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10:23 PM

♥ Wednesday, October 7, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

YEsterday was awesome.. Went Sentosa and had plenty of fun.. HAHA..

Met up with Wangjue at JE station and go all the way to Habour Front..
On the way there.. I was saying how pissed i was with Barry.. LOLL

And when i saw Barry.. we tried to sort things out.. AND WE ARE BACK TO FRIENDS AGAIN!! HAHA..

Benedict, Barry, Wangjue and Me were the first few who arrive...
So we went shopping at VivoMart.. while Kenogi and Irene joined us later..

Had some shopping.. and by that time, Gary joined us.. HAHA..

After that, we get read yto go SENTOSA!!!

Had a game of volleyball at first
Well.. went for a "match" and the winner take chicken.. HAHA..

but ended up... no one follow that rule. LOLL.. we just went on to eat the one we like.. HAHA..
Daryl came after.. with 2 of his girlfriends.. LOLL..

And later......
BACK TO VOLLEYBALL AGAIN.. LOLLL..
and finally into the water..
DIdnt want to BE in the water. instead. wants to watch people get thrown..
Sadly.. Barry threw meinto the water.. making me super duber wet....

Had a little fun.. While the guys keep saying I am Horny..
WHEN I AM NOT!!

Wth..
after that.. rested for a while under the tent.. and then chit-chat..
AND WENT FOR SAND DRAWING!

SPDS WAS HERE!! Drawn by Wangjue:)

Me with my name.. Ok.. i look super weird when i am dripping wet.. HAHA...

The group there:)

Leping, Barry and Me...
I LOOK HORRIBLE! GOSH..

Me and Shankra.. Gosh.. his eyes really looks like goldfish. HAHA..

Wangjue and me:)

Kenogi and me.. HAHA..
I suddenly find that my calves look damn nice.. HAHA..

ALRIGHT!!! END OF IT ALR LA! HAHA..

if wanna see more unglam pics..
CLICK HEREEE!!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

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9:59 AM

♥ Monday, October 5, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

WADDA HELL?!?!?!

recently.. none of the things i do are smoothly done..

1. People under me are not doing their job properly.. They are certificated.. I am not.. yet they make idiot mistakes..
2. People NEVER keep their promise.. said one thing, do another thing.. and i hate people like that..
3. I am grounded.. YEA!! FCUK! All cuz of a word BABY.. all my hard-earned freedom is gone like shit.. THought that nth is wrong right? DUN EVER THINK I AM GOING TO FORGIVE YOU!

Totally have no idea.. how much i have gone through to have this freedom right now.. and now.. everything is back to point zero..
So this is wad you wan right?! Dun blame me for doing all these to you..
all i can say is.. YOU DESERVE IT!

I wil never forgive people who mess with my freedom..
Because you are borned with freedom.. therefore you dun give a damn to people who dun have freedom.. and you never know how hard they work/ do to get what they had..
Now seeing them without freedom.. you just know how to ask.. why your mum so strict one huh?!

YOU NEVER KNOW the hard work i have put in behind it!
Fine. since this is the final answer you want.. dun blame me for giving you this..

I HATE PEOPLE WHO BREAK PROMISE..
you said no outsiders.. you even bold it out..
yet you do it..

I wonder.. if i go do it.. you will be bitching about me all over right? to everyone right?
SO you can la..
Who the hell you think you are?!

I dun care if you are going to make it or not.. i just hate the fact that you didnt even ask others for ideas.. so wad if you make this?! so wad?! you think only you can make this?!

DUN EVEN THINK ABOUT IT..

you better watch it tomorrow.. if you step on my line.. dun say i never give you chance..

its a bad day afterall..

Lots of love,
SiSi

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10:46 PM

♥ Friday, October 2, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

Just a couple of days ago... something big happened to me...
Or rather.. something that made me regret happened...

I thought i could get over it..
I thought all the heavy workload that I am doing now will help me to recover from my sadness..
But it seems like.. it's not doing well..

I tried eating my favourite food..
But all i was doing is making me fatter and fatter..
Yup.. I gained 2 kg...
Just imagine how many fats and carbonhyrates i have stuffed inside of me.

In front of my parents, i have to act like someone who is really cheerful.. making them laugh all the time..
In front of my sister,i have to be a role model for her to look up to....
In front of my friends, i have to cheer them up..

Why am I always showing a mask?
Why cant i just weep in front of them, cry loudly in front of them and ask them to give me a hug to say everything will be fine?

That is because, i dont want others to feel unhappy with me...
But it's rather tiring to hide it in front of your parents..

Well.. I thought i can get over it.. like what i always say..
But getting over it doesnt help AT ALL..

It just make me feel worse.
Everytime i stop to relax, it will make me stress once more..

I thought i can do like what i said...
But Apparently, I cannot...

I thought since last week, i managed to do it well already.
But it doenst.. it just make my life even more worse and makes me hate for who I am...

Well......
I hope i could find a quay somewhere.. and RIP...

I am sure.. give me a few more days.. I can get over it..
Because there are lot more of things ahead of me.. needing me to do...

If i just give up because of this "small" obstacles, i will disappoint of lot of people who once look up to me...

GANBARIMASU!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

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12:06 AM

♥ Tuesday, September 29, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

ARGHHH.. i am so having so much craving for food ONCE AGAIN!!

WHY?!?!?!

I am stressed.. come on..
For wad???!!!

Lets see what i am having on my table right now...
1. Notebooks
2. Proposals
3. Reports
4. Theory Hwk
5. Letters
6. Dictationary...

Why cant my holiday filled with happiness and fun?
Why do i have to do all these boring things?!

ARGHHH....

AND WHEN CAN I CLEAR ALL THESE?!
THIS WEEK?!
NEXT WEKK?!

i doubted... hais..

And recently.. my life is in a mess.. Have been neglectin a lot of things.. i really dun know if i should go and solve it or not...

But all i know is.. i dun have the courage to go face this... I am afraid that it might hurt someone badly...

Having to this resort is not being i dun have the feelings anymore..
I am doing this because I felt that my confidence is all gone...

I want to find my confidence back.. and also to be fair...
I know that I will not be able to be fair.. So i decided to let it go..
No matter how much pain i am having.. I will still hold it on by myself...

To anomyous(you should know?!)

Doing that is not what i really want...
Maybe it could be really hurt at the beginning..
But i am sure time can help to get over it...

But the only i can confirm is.. the feeling, will NEVER change...
Pls trust this sentence...

And also.. I hope that... we could get back as good as new..
I really really hope that... but the courage of me doing it.. is not there at all...

I am so sorry if i have hurt you..
Right now, I am still feeling guilty.. VERY guilty..
Although many people say.. dun be.. there is not point of being guilty with what you have done.. just go with it.. and it will end..

But the guilt comes because you made me felt like.. I am the most evil person IN THE WHOLE WORLD!

But the only thing i can do is.. to apologise to you...
But i dun dare to say it in front of you.. because i dun have the confident and courage to hear the reply from you...

Lots of love,
SiSi

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11:03 PM

♥ Sunday, September 27, 2009

My Complicate Life ♥

YEah! Yesterday was hectic.. total hectic..

woke up early in the morning to get ready..
HAD TO GO ALL THE WAY TO CITY HALL!
accompany Shankra and Leonard to get their dancing shoe..

And later rushed back to school for the Main Committee interview..
As the questions are confidental.. I shall not mention any of them in there.. but it's overall good..:)

OH YA!!!
after that, straightaway went for dance practice.. of course, went for brunch at ard 3 plus.. AHA.. PIZZA ONCE AGAIN!!!!

Practice dance till 6 plus, then start to learn how to do hair..
Well.. my hair looks ok.. except KAI said the fringe is a bit too thin.. Shall go get a thicker one.. HAHA..

Tested the floor at 6.30 and mock compeition start exactly at 7 PM..
Partnered with Benedict...
Finally felt like how a competition is about..
URESHIIII!!!

Dance pretty well i guess.:)
event ended at 8 plus.. but played a little with the gang.. and then left for home..
MY POOR CURFEW.. LOLL.. HAHA...

RIghts.. got to go.. and BRAINSTORM..
haha..

BYE BYE~~~

OH.. for more pics.. HAH.. go to http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=112119&id=664352487

Lots of love,
SiSi

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9:18 PM